The biggest thing in life that I failed at, I don’t regret one bit like most people do when they fail at it too. I failed at staying in school and graduating but it was the one thing that made the path for my life today.
Who knows where I would be if I would have graduated. I might have gone off to college and met someone else who I wouldn’t love as much as I love my husband of 21 years. I might not have started writing to make money and fell in love with it either. I shudder to think about how my life would be different. I might have stayed on drugs and gotten worse with them and either be dead or in prison by now. Thank God I made the decisions I made. Let me tell you why.
I quit school when I was 17. I was three months from turning 18 and only had a couple of months of my Junior year left but was being threatened to fail that year because of all of the days of school I skipped.
I skipped school a lot and they were threatening to fail me that year and make me do it over again. I wasn’t doing that when I hated school, to begin with. Hating school was one of the reasons I would skip it. Plus, I was heavily into smoking pot, popping pain pills, and drinking as much alcohol as I could get my hands on. Just ask my now husband about the alcohol. When we first met, we both drank and I drank him under the table a lot of time. For those who don’t know what drinking someone under the table means, it means I was still awake and drinking long after he was drunk and passed out. And he was a lot more experienced than I was and is 11 years older than me. Of course, age doesn’t mean a thing. It is only a number, after all.
I firmly believe, and always have, that our decisions and actions we take from those decisions pave a path for the rest of our lives. Everything we do creates a ripple effect on our future. What I am trying to say is that the things you do when you are younger, make way for the things that are supposed to happen in your future.
I remember the day I met who would be my husband six years from then. I was downtown in the town I grew up in, walking toward home. It was still early but I decided to go check-in. After all, I was still underage and had check-in times with my mom and dad since I was always getting into trouble. I had just gotten high on weed with one of my so-called friends back then.
Another friend of mine back then was just driving into town since that day she was going to meet the man she was a penpal with while he was in prison and he had just gotten out. The man I have been married to for 21 years now, well technically 15 but we have been together for 21 years and just claim we have been married the whole time.
She stopped and asked me if I wanted to go meet him with her. She said she was nervous. She had been writing to him for a few months before while he was in prison. He was in there for breaking into a music store and stealing the musical instruments so he could sell them to buy his crack. The store was closed at the time and he didn’t go in with any weapons. He just needed drug money. He didn’t know at the time that someone else was leaving the music store as he was breaking in and had just stolen what he could too for the same reason.
As this other criminal was leaving with what he had stolen, he saw my husband entering. The cops showed up, someone must have heard the noise and called them. They asked the other guy what he was doing there and he told them about seeing my husband breaking into the store. So, they let that guy go and went in after my husband. My husband had already left and took off. He went to his dad’s in my hometown and his dad talked him into turning himself in. He did and got three years in prison. However, while he was in prison, he got clean and sober from the drugs.
As I mentioned earlier, he and my friend were pen pals. She had a boyfriend who eventually became her husband but she was so promiscuous back then that she still talked dirty to my husband in the “love” letters she sent to him.
So, I agreed to go meet him. We went to meet him and ended up getting drunk with him and his dad. Yeah, we were underage but they didn’t know it at the time. They thought we were old enough because we made ourselves look old enough by the way we dressed and did our hair and makeup.
As my friend and I were leaving, she said that she liked him, as in, wanted to be with him. I reminded her that she already had a boyfriend and couldn’t she let me talk to him instead? She didn’t say anything but took me home by my curfew.
The next day I decided to go up to his dad’s house, where he was staying at the time and visit him with a couple of my friends. Once we got up there, we started drinking with them. My friends decided to leave and I decided to stay for a little while longer. That was when he and I sat there and talked and he asked me to be his girlfriend. We have been together since and got married six years later. That was 21 years ago as of June 8, 2019.
We have been through some ups and downs like every relationship goes through but we have stayed faithful to one another and always got back on track to being in love. I am so happy that I agreed to meet him on that day!
I honestly don’t think things would have turned out this way with my life if I wouldn’t have decided to drop out of school. That is why I believe that my biggest failure in life made for the best life I could ever imagine. If it wasn’t for meeting my husband, I honestly don’t know if I would be alive today or free for that matter. I was getting pretty heavy into drugs back then and he talked me into quitting them. We both drank together for a while but when I hit my middle 20s, we both quit drinking together and haven’t drunk since then.
We both have had slip-ups with drugs since though but we are now in a Suboxone clinic together and are clean and sober now. We are very happy together and can’t imagine life without each other. We are together all the time, practically joined at the hip!
Just the other night we were sitting here talking and listening to music on our TV. A country love song came on and he got quiet for a few minutes as I was sitting in front of the computer writing. He all of a sudden said he didn’t know where he would be without me in his life, except probably back in prison or dead. He mentioned that without me, he probably would have done something stupid again, like go back on the drugs, and would either be back in prison for life or dead by now. I told him I felt the same way.
Now, I am a writer and love what I do for a living. I also love the man I am married to and always will. Life is about the decisions you make that can make a path for your future. I truly believe that! My biggest failer turned into the best thing that happened in my life.